


Identity is slippery and contingent, and its flickering nature allows for resistance and creativity. It is created and destroyed in thousands of violent and daily collisions between one’s own sense of self and the outside forces of educators, rapists, bullies, and racists. Rather, it’s a hybrid text that blends humor, true crime, poetry, and art criticism to enact how identity is apparitional. Gurba’s memoir Mean isn’t a coming-of-age story about discovering an authentic self.

As she comes to, an employee asks if she’s epileptic. One day, she passes out in the school gym. As an undergraduate at the University of California Berkeley, Myriam Gurba developed an eating and exercise disorder in the wake of a sexual assault.
